So I thought I would bring you up to date on my health and such since the fateful day of October 11 when I suffered a massive stroke to my left cerebellum. I will run through the immediate events following the stroke quickly so you can all catch up.
October 11 I had a stroke. I was leaving the local grocery store and I became very dizzy, vomited, etc… it was a stroke. I was rushed to the ER by ambulance, I was air lifted to Orlando the next day in order to prep me for surgery. It seems I had a blood clot in my brain and they were goin’ in.
I spent about 2 weeks in the most depressing looking hospital ever. You know those zombie movies where the hospital is all dilapidated and stuff and you expect a face-chewer to burst in your door any second? Yeah, that’s where I was. For two weeks. October 24 I got to come home.
I have been home now for less than 2 months. If you were paying attention, you would know that Christmas Eve marks 2 weeks since I was discharged. Since my homecoming it has been frustrating to say the least. I spent the first month not able to do very much at all but I have my Wonder Woman of a girlfriend to help me out and I do my best to let her know I love her for it. My son Corey is 5 months now and he puts a smile on my face. In the past 3 weeks or so I have really been improving exponentially and I am back to driving again. Shh, don’t tell any one, my doctor hasn’t cleared me yet.
According to everyone around me, the major issue now is not whether I can read, or walk or shower by myself but it’s my attitude and likeliness that I will say something to piss someone off. As most of you who spend any amount of time around me lately have realized, I seem like a different person. I went from being a relatively happy guy pre-stroke to sounding like a miserable son of a bitch since. It has been *ahem* suggested that I ask the doctor for antidepressants and I certainly will talk to him to fins out what he thinks is happening. Here are a couple possibilities I have come up with.
First, maybe the stroke caused some chemical imbalance and that has thrown everything off. I have become a statistic just like most people who suffer a stroke and now have sever depression disorder.
Second, maybe the damage to my brain was more significant than the doctors realized leaving me as an evil genius (I have become pretty good at Jeopardy) and put me in a state of perpetual misery and constantly plotting my revenge on Ronald McDonald, Wendy and the King.
Third and my personal pick, I JUST HAD A STROKE and it will take some time for me to get back to everyone else’s sense of what normalcy is. Perhaps I have always bitched about stupid people. the government and anything else that bugs me but I became so good at hiding it so I didn’t upset anyone that it became invisible. Now, it seems that my ability to keep my pessimistic thoughts in my head has been damaged and it will take some time for me to learn to hide it for the sake of everyone else again.
Either way, I am speaking to my doctor about it on Monday and we will go from there.
ouch dude thats some major stuff to deal with. hope all is well